{"id":4129,"date":"2025-03-16T10:00:00","date_gmt":"2025-03-16T10:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.stefanhammel.com\/blog\/?p=4129"},"modified":"2025-02-04T10:55:10","modified_gmt":"2025-02-04T10:55:10","slug":"kenyszer-compulsion","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.stefanhammel.com\/blog\/2025\/03\/16\/4129\/","title":{"rendered":"K\u00e9nyszer (Compulsion)"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<p>I owe thanks for this story to Attila Mislai who translated it.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>\u00dcld\u00f6zt\u00e9k a k\u00e9pek. Mintha az ember v\u00e1ratlanul egy rossz filmben tal\u00e1ln\u00e1 mag\u00e1t. Valah\u00e1nyszor babakocsi mellett ment el az utc\u00e1n, l\u00e1tta mag\u00e1t, amint kir\u00e1ngatja a gyereket a kocsib\u00f3l \u00e9s rugdalni kezdi a j\u00e1rd\u00e1n. Ha egy gy\u00f6ny\u00f6r\u0171 n\u0151vel tal\u00e1lkozott, k\u00e9pzeletben let\u00e9pte a ruh\u00e1j\u00e1t \u00e9s meger\u0151szakolta. Amikor a szeretteivel volt, att\u00f3l rettegett, hogy hirtelen k\u00e9st ragad \u00e9s lesz\u00farja valamelyiket. Az otthon\u00e1ban, egyed\u00fcl, elk\u00e9pzelte, hogyan gy\u00fajtja fel a f\u00fcgg\u00f6ny\u00f6ket. Mikor szabads\u00e1gra ment, Isten r\u00e9miszt\u0151 parancsa z\u00fagott a fej\u00e9ben minduntalan: \u201eNe legyen n\u00e9ked m\u00e1s t\u00e1maszod, mindenedet&nbsp; h\u00e1trahagyva indulj v\u00e1ndor\u00fatra.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-image\">\n<figure class=\"aligncenter size-full\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.stefanhammel.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/03\/compulsion.png\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"392\" height=\"391\" src=\"https:\/\/www.stefanhammel.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/03\/compulsion.png\" alt=\"\" class=\"wp-image-4132\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.stefanhammel.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/03\/compulsion.png 392w, https:\/\/www.stefanhammel.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/03\/compulsion-300x300.png 300w, https:\/\/www.stefanhammel.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/03\/compulsion-150x150.png 150w, https:\/\/www.stefanhammel.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/03\/compulsion-301x300.png 301w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 392px) 100vw, 392px\" \/><\/a><\/figure>\n<\/div>\n\n\n<p>Gy\u00f6trelmes volt. Min\u00e9l er\u0151sebben igyekezett el\u0171zni a h\u00e1tborzongat\u00f3 fant\u00e1zi\u00e1kat \u00e9s k\u00e9sztet\u00e9seket, ann\u00e1l er\u0151sebben k\u00ednozt\u00e1k. V\u00e9g\u00fcl, keser\u0171 d\u00fch\u00e9ben, \u00edgy sz\u00f3lt: \u201eMeg\u00e9rdemled, te szerencs\u00e9tlen!\u201d Azzal neki\u00e1llt elk\u00e9pzelni, megjelen\u00edteni mindent, a lehet\u0151 leg\u00e1rnyaltabban \u00e9s legr\u00e9szletesebben. Hogy taposna meg egy gyereket. Hogyan er\u0151szakolna meg egy n\u0151t. Hogyan m\u00e9sz\u00e1roln\u00e1 le a csal\u00e1dj\u00e1t. Hogy gy\u00fajtan\u00e1 fel a sz\u00fcl\u0151i h\u00e1zat. Hogy indulna \u00fatnak minden\u00e9t h\u00e1trahagyva. \u00c9s ekkor a k\u00e9pek elvesztett\u00e9k a hatalmukat felette. Egyre s\u00e1padtabbak, egyre er\u0151tlenebbek lettek.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p>This story in English: <a href=\"https:\/\/www.stefanhammel.com\/blog\/2013\/07\/14\/2674\/\">https:\/\/www.stefanhammel.com\/blog\/2013\/07\/14\/2674\/<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I owe thanks for this story to Attila Mislai who translated it. \u00dcld\u00f6zt\u00e9k a k\u00e9pek. Mintha az ember v\u00e1ratlanul egy rossz filmben tal\u00e1ln\u00e1 mag\u00e1t. Valah\u00e1nyszor babakocsi mellett ment el az utc\u00e1n, l\u00e1tta mag\u00e1t, amint kir\u00e1ngatja a gyereket a kocsib\u00f3l \u00e9s &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/www.stefanhammel.com\/blog\/2025\/03\/16\/4129\/\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[185,290,235,236,237],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-4129","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-fear","category-hungary","category-obsessive-compulsive-disorder","category-symptoms","category-thoughts"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.stefanhammel.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4129","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.stefanhammel.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.stefanhammel.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.stefanhammel.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.stefanhammel.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=4129"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.stefanhammel.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4129\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":4133,"href":"https:\/\/www.stefanhammel.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4129\/revisions\/4133"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.stefanhammel.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=4129"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.stefanhammel.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=4129"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.stefanhammel.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=4129"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}